Sunday, October 26, 2008
To Fiona, For Fiona.
Although we're not close friends or so called sisters. But, when in need, call me whenever you want. Sorry for not listening to your explanation tht day. But, i guess its alright now because me & him are just friends.
To say th truth, it is not worth being so sad for relationship thingy. I've been through it, i know th best. Those heartaches tht you feel is something tht could not be explain or letting other people understand. It do hurt, so so much if you really did put your heart into it. You know, in every relationship, when you've reached a stage whereby you felt tht no matter what he do is right, you can accept him whoever he is, it is something, tht is worth to celebrate if tht relationship is still going on. Because, all these shows tht you love him, its LOVE, not like anymore.
No one will understand what type of pain when you realise tht breaking up means tht you could not see him whenever you want, cannot hold his hand, cannot call him dear/laogong/baby, cannot kiss him, cannot hug him when you want, cannot text him when you miss him, cannot call him when you're in need of comfort, love or care, cannot tell him how much you love him. I swear, i understand how it feels. It really really felt so miserable when you realise it. Once you breakup, you regretted lots of things. you would blame yourself for making yourself lose such a relationship. You will keep thinking of th times when he show you his love, when he care, when he concern, when he is anxious when you're sick/injured, when he felt heart pain seeing you in pain. You will not get th love once again. You could not be th one holding his hand anymore. you'll not be th one tht he will be saying i love you again & again.
You know, somethings, no matter how hard you tried to salvage, it is useless. Although you'll feel tht you're in th wrong. Definitely must be you tht had done something wrong to make him tired of you or even hate you or something. But, it is useless, really useless. No matter how painful you felt, how miserable you are, he will not realise it @ all. He will still be living happily, enjoying his daily life, continue with his life as if he did not lose anything at all. To say th truth, nothing in this world is forever. If a guy say tht he wants to stick with you forever, those promises & everything, please do not believe them. They are just lies, words. They're all useless. Guys would not know how painful it is for a girl to feel when they said breakup. They will not know how miserable th girl feels when they say tht they're tired.
I know you felt tired feel like dying, something is missing in your heart, everything felt so pointless, everything felt so empty. This feeling, "special" feeling, no one would understand. No matter how hard you tried to look happy, contented or even not at all lonely, whenever you're in th bus, in th train, walking home, you'll remember how he hold your hands, hug you, send you home & text you asking you if you've reached home safely.
Be strong girl, live for yourself.
Don't put too much trust in guys,
you will only be hurt, again & again.
Take good care of yourself.
Please don't ever do stupid things.
Never play with your life,
just remember tht you've gained something from this relationship.
This is part of life,
This IS life.
everyone need to go through this.
Everyone had gone through this.
This type of pain, something tht medicine cant cure.
Time will wash everything away.
Time will heal th pain.
Don't think too much.
Remember:
he don't even care, why should i think so much things?
He won't regret, why should be th one regretting?
He won't feel pain, why should i be th one tht suffer?
He won't come back, whad am i hoping& thinking of?
He won't turn back, why should i be th one finding ways?
Tell yourself:
I must be strong, show him tht i can live better without him.
I have friends by my side, why shoould i keep thinking of him?
I can live without him, i won't die just like tht.
Someone better will come by, he is just not th right one.
JIAYOU, JIAYOU !! (:
TakeCare uh,
loves, Rachel
7:56 PM
